So yeah I want to moan and bitch.
So after my ex left my best friend got back. I was in love with him for like a few years. He luckily went away for 2 years. So I kinda got over him really well. Like I had thought I had moved on. I think in the event of my ex having to leave I kinda rebounded cause "it's all coming back to me now" on the best friend. This is so depressing...
I tried so hard to get a boy to like just hang out with and be fun with cause I didn't want something too heavy soon. But now that ain't happening and I'm constantly stuck with him in conversation. And it is driving me crazy.
Queer club fail. Although I LOVE going to them I mostly feel like a fail when I get home. Older guys. No wait - OLD guys always come up to me. No young guys. I don't get it. Meh
Nway gawd...meh
Nway, the boy i wanted to add of FB. I didn't. But it is making progress IRL. I'm working on it and I think maybe something will happen. And then I have another option in the pipeline. So yeah seems I am like a slut. I'm really not.
I'm just kinda emotionally confused.
Luckily my holiday start in two weeks so I can post a shit load again and try and figure things out for myself. Hopefully u guys can give a helping hand - kekeke!
So glad the year is almost done. I need chill time. Fuck. What a year. If I look back it seems impossible to have done so much. Kinda proud. This was a good year. I am growing a lot.
Peace and love,
xXX
Showing posts with label boys. Show all posts
Showing posts with label boys. Show all posts
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
NEED URGENT OPINION!!!!
Okay, thanx for taking the time to read this!
There is a very cute first year boy at my university that I like. We have only spoken once thanx to the fucked up printers always breaking on our campus. DUO RAGE!
Nway, after my ex I kinda lost it a bit. I'm very lonely. And I just want to like test the waters again. Nothin serious. I can't do it again so quick. But I am kinda loosing out on fun times with cute boys.
So thing is it is really difficult to get to him. Cause eh is always with a group of friends. I know for a fact he is gay, cause I overheard him say once "my ex boyfriend". So thats settled.
Now we DO check each other out on campus, but I mean it would be to random for us to just walk up to one another and start speaking. Also i can't attend a party i think he will be at cause I have to much work. o now I wanna know:
Should I invite him on Facebook? It is almost holidays and then I'll only see him again next year Feb. Or is it too random or stalkersish? We do have like 6 friends in common.
He really seems nice.
Oh, wait just one last thing. Me and one of his kinda friends have kissed oncw ehn we were both very drunk at a party - they guy threw himself at me. So maybe it is weird. I dunno. Meh. Boyz make me stupid.
Meh
Love and peace
xXx
There is a very cute first year boy at my university that I like. We have only spoken once thanx to the fucked up printers always breaking on our campus. DUO RAGE!
Nway, after my ex I kinda lost it a bit. I'm very lonely. And I just want to like test the waters again. Nothin serious. I can't do it again so quick. But I am kinda loosing out on fun times with cute boys.
So thing is it is really difficult to get to him. Cause eh is always with a group of friends. I know for a fact he is gay, cause I overheard him say once "my ex boyfriend". So thats settled.
Now we DO check each other out on campus, but I mean it would be to random for us to just walk up to one another and start speaking. Also i can't attend a party i think he will be at cause I have to much work. o now I wanna know:
Should I invite him on Facebook? It is almost holidays and then I'll only see him again next year Feb. Or is it too random or stalkersish? We do have like 6 friends in common.
He really seems nice.
Oh, wait just one last thing. Me and one of his kinda friends have kissed oncw ehn we were both very drunk at a party - they guy threw himself at me. So maybe it is weird. I dunno. Meh. Boyz make me stupid.
Meh
Love and peace
xXx
Thursday, July 8, 2010
PURPLE !!!
Kinda productive holiday day!
So I got up really late and decided I have to go renew my car license. So proud of myself for actually doing it in time lol! Then went to refill my ink and made an appointment at the day spa for a hair cut. Got one for 2morrow at 12.
On the way out of the computer shop (where I refilled the ink) I walked into my ex-priest lol! (Yeah, I think I should make a post about my wacky spiritual beliefs - just to kinda test ur openmindedness.) Nway, I kinda ignored him. He looked at me with empry eyes. Kinda reminded me of his empty promises.
Anyway from religion to sex. I am sooooOOoo PURPLE!!! FML!!! I totally have a hormone imbalance since my boy left. Bleh! I kinda have two willing boys lined up. But I dunno. It would only be sexytime. No emotion. And I don't know if I roll like that. Well I think my kinda-boy-who-left- would incourage me to get some. We kinda understand the situation.
I plan on making a post-SWC post as well. I am so proud of the way we hosted this event. I think we did AWESOME! But yeah, a lot of kewl statistic to give to ya. And they all said we couldn't do it ...
THIS TIME FOR AFRIXA !!!!
Peace, love and soccer balls!
xXx
So I got up really late and decided I have to go renew my car license. So proud of myself for actually doing it in time lol! Then went to refill my ink and made an appointment at the day spa for a hair cut. Got one for 2morrow at 12.
On the way out of the computer shop (where I refilled the ink) I walked into my ex-priest lol! (Yeah, I think I should make a post about my wacky spiritual beliefs - just to kinda test ur openmindedness.) Nway, I kinda ignored him. He looked at me with empry eyes. Kinda reminded me of his empty promises.
Anyway from religion to sex. I am sooooOOoo PURPLE!!! FML!!! I totally have a hormone imbalance since my boy left. Bleh! I kinda have two willing boys lined up. But I dunno. It would only be sexytime. No emotion. And I don't know if I roll like that. Well I think my kinda-boy-who-left- would incourage me to get some. We kinda understand the situation.
I plan on making a post-SWC post as well. I am so proud of the way we hosted this event. I think we did AWESOME! But yeah, a lot of kewl statistic to give to ya. And they all said we couldn't do it ...
THIS TIME FOR AFRIXA !!!!
Peace, love and soccer balls!
xXx
Thursday, July 1, 2010
See you soon
Letter to my dearest friend and lover.
The Road Not Taken
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
xXx
Dear Bibi
As I am typing this my eyes are filled with the memories and love that built up inside me over the past six months.
I am crying, baby. Not because I am sad only, but because I feel blessed that I had the incredible miracle of playing some part in your life.
I feel so proud that I know someone as amazingly smart, caring and fun as you. You have changed my life and I can say with confidence that I have altered yours. You will forever be with me as I carry you in my heart of hearts.
Although time will come as a blessing in disguise and heal us of one another as space will drift between, this I promise you my dear sweet habibi...the love and understanding that we share will stand the test of time.
You may think that I have shown you the path, but I assure you that you have changed my entire course. I let you know that I love you and you obliged without hesitation. But I never did allow myself to indulge you with my true feelings as I understood that the inevitable departure would be too much to bare.
I want you to always remember the little time we had and never let anyone put you down. Be kind as you always are and teach them not through words, but by your amazing example.
I will see you again my doux bebe. Up until then I will live life to its fullest as to enrich myself for our next meeting.
It was truly a privilege and a pleasure spending time with you.
I love you with all my heart and all my soul.
Your taatie-teef
P.S I want you to read this poem by Robert Frost as it reminds me of you...
The Road Not Taken
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
xXx
Sunday, April 25, 2010
HOTTEST HUNKS 2009
Ey so again today started at a slow pace and was very relaxed!
Gee I have such a wonderful life for which I am very thankful!
Got dressed and went out with one of my dearest gf's for cocktails and Mexican platters. It was really nice. She was speaking to me also of her issues with her bf. Meh I am starting to think they have no nope. Wud sux to see their relationship of so many years just...end.
Anyways just as we were about to leave I saw my parents entering the restaurant. HOW WEIRD?! Was very surprised to see them and vice verse. So my gf said it is fine if i wanna stay and so I did. Score another cocktail and some calamari. Twas nice....
Then I was suppose to go out to a club, but meh, didn't like the people that went so I decided to stay home wiff mom and dad and watch a music concert DVD. It was a very good SA production with high production value. I was quite impressed!
So now I am about to go to bed. Just wanted to keep ya guys up to speed.
Peace and love....
Nah okay I'm only kidding here follows my list of 2009's HOTTEST HUNKS!!!!
(Keep in mind 2009 - I wil release this year's version later on)
Top 25 - 2009
25 Dan Carter
24 Brad Pitt (YEAH GET OVER IT!!!)
23 Shane West
22 Paul Walker
21 Ryan Reynolds
20 Eric McCormack
19 Christiano Renaldo
18 Enrique Iglesias
17 Adam Lambert
16 Orlando Bloom
15 Jesse McCartney
12 Josh Duhamel
13 Leonardo DiCaprio
12 James Franco
11 Daniel Radcliffe
TOP TEN
10 Ashton Kutcher
9 Emile Hirsch
8 Robert Pattinson
7 Gael Garcia Bernal
6 Johnny Depp
THE TOP FIVE
5 DAVID BECKHAM
4 ZAC EFRON
3 KEVIN ZEGERS
2 JOE JONAS
AND THE WINNER IS!!!!!!!!!!!!
1 JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS
Gee I have such a wonderful life for which I am very thankful!
Got dressed and went out with one of my dearest gf's for cocktails and Mexican platters. It was really nice. She was speaking to me also of her issues with her bf. Meh I am starting to think they have no nope. Wud sux to see their relationship of so many years just...end.
Anyways just as we were about to leave I saw my parents entering the restaurant. HOW WEIRD?! Was very surprised to see them and vice verse. So my gf said it is fine if i wanna stay and so I did. Score another cocktail and some calamari. Twas nice....
Then I was suppose to go out to a club, but meh, didn't like the people that went so I decided to stay home wiff mom and dad and watch a music concert DVD. It was a very good SA production with high production value. I was quite impressed!
So now I am about to go to bed. Just wanted to keep ya guys up to speed.
Peace and love....
Nah okay I'm only kidding here follows my list of 2009's HOTTEST HUNKS!!!!
(Keep in mind 2009 - I wil release this year's version later on)
Top 25 - 2009
25 Dan Carter
24 Brad Pitt (YEAH GET OVER IT!!!)
23 Shane West
22 Paul Walker
21 Ryan Reynolds
20 Eric McCormack
19 Christiano Renaldo
18 Enrique Iglesias
17 Adam Lambert
16 Orlando Bloom
15 Jesse McCartney
12 Josh Duhamel
13 Leonardo DiCaprio
12 James Franco
11 Daniel Radcliffe
TOP TEN
10 Ashton Kutcher
9 Emile Hirsch
8 Robert Pattinson
7 Gael Garcia Bernal
6 Johnny Depp
THE TOP FIVE
5 DAVID BECKHAM
4 ZAC EFRON
3 KEVIN ZEGERS
2 JOE JONAS
AND THE WINNER IS!!!!!!!!!!!!
1 JONATHAN RHYS MEYERS
Saturday, April 24, 2010
The new life dawns
Okay okay yeah I am still on about the coming out thingy.
I am still in shock that it went so good. And the I feel guilty for ever doubting my family. Meh I think it is just weird for me to like be on the phone today and tell a boy I think that guy is cute or that guy isn't and not have to care who hears or speak in hushed tones. FML it is amazing. It is so nice and relaxed. No more paranoia.
I decided I will not like make my orientation know to the extensive public. If someone asks I will tell them, but I do not want my orientation to become the most interesting part of me. Ya know? Cause it really isn't...
I have recently added some kewl blogs to my "Must reads' section so be sure to check them out!
Oe I am so excited: I am going camping on Monday - Wednesday. I love camping and being in nature, Can't wait to get out there and get crunked by a fireplace. Imma bake a bread over the fire. Yay!!!!
Please remember that I made a formspring so feel free to ask me any questions. Bleh I only have four so it is kinda embarrassing haha!
I recently discovered my annual hottest dude list for 2009 in my sent items so I thought that I would publish that as tomorrow's post. So be sure to check in!!!!
P.S Welcome Jack and Chrissie!
Love sex and magic
xXx
I am still in shock that it went so good. And the I feel guilty for ever doubting my family. Meh I think it is just weird for me to like be on the phone today and tell a boy I think that guy is cute or that guy isn't and not have to care who hears or speak in hushed tones. FML it is amazing. It is so nice and relaxed. No more paranoia.
I decided I will not like make my orientation know to the extensive public. If someone asks I will tell them, but I do not want my orientation to become the most interesting part of me. Ya know? Cause it really isn't...
I have recently added some kewl blogs to my "Must reads' section so be sure to check them out!
Oe I am so excited: I am going camping on Monday - Wednesday. I love camping and being in nature, Can't wait to get out there and get crunked by a fireplace. Imma bake a bread over the fire. Yay!!!!
Please remember that I made a formspring so feel free to ask me any questions. Bleh I only have four so it is kinda embarrassing haha!
I recently discovered my annual hottest dude list for 2009 in my sent items so I thought that I would publish that as tomorrow's post. So be sure to check in!!!!
P.S Welcome Jack and Chrissie!
Love sex and magic
xXx
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
The music
I am so hyped right now!!!
As u well know by now my entire existance is soley dependant on music. It is in every fibe of my being. The reason that I am so amped is beacuse I just discovvered my fm transmiter in my closet. So now I can use my USB in the car agian. This is so awesome - esspecially seeing that I have a 2 hour commute everyday. Music is what keeps me sane.
I thought I would give u guys all the oppertunity to name one of ur fav songs of all time or just a song that u like at the moment and I will include this on my playlist! Yay!
I am planning what I think is a kewl post for tomorow. It will require some interactivity. I hope that u guys wil buy into it. If not FML and then we die. Haha!
So Thursday and Friday is 9-5 uni for me and then on Friday evening I have a flat warming at one of my girl friends' flat. There will be at least two gay guys. EECK! Nervous a bit. I usually get attention and then I don't know how to cope with it. I think I'll just start drinking well before they arrive. Then I will be lank willing to chat them up whahah! Social lubricant of choice: Vodka!
Wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy...
P.S. Welcome Robert!
Cheers vir eers
Peace and love,
xXx
As u well know by now my entire existance is soley dependant on music. It is in every fibe of my being. The reason that I am so amped is beacuse I just discovvered my fm transmiter in my closet. So now I can use my USB in the car agian. This is so awesome - esspecially seeing that I have a 2 hour commute everyday. Music is what keeps me sane.
I thought I would give u guys all the oppertunity to name one of ur fav songs of all time or just a song that u like at the moment and I will include this on my playlist! Yay!
I am planning what I think is a kewl post for tomorow. It will require some interactivity. I hope that u guys wil buy into it. If not FML and then we die. Haha!
So Thursday and Friday is 9-5 uni for me and then on Friday evening I have a flat warming at one of my girl friends' flat. There will be at least two gay guys. EECK! Nervous a bit. I usually get attention and then I don't know how to cope with it. I think I'll just start drinking well before they arrive. Then I will be lank willing to chat them up whahah! Social lubricant of choice: Vodka!
Wake up in the morning feeling like P. Diddy...
P.S. Welcome Robert!
Cheers vir eers
Peace and love,
xXx
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Cuties are everywhere
Well hello good people of blogworld!
What an interesting day...so far! Decided to go into uni earlier to get some much needed work done. Didn't happen. I got there and was feeling so social that I ended up having a great chat with all my friends! Good times!
OMW! One of my gf's got this one amazingly cute guy to come speak with us. So I have one big ass crush on his cute face! And so I spoke with him and we teased the girl and he laughed at all my jokes. EGO BOOST! Lolz! So that was all good and well! ;-p
Then I had three hours of boring class and had do go do a exercise which took me hours. So I got home at 21h. Bleh FML! Would have been here much earlier but this girl asked me for a lift, cause her mother's car broke down. It took me 40min to drop her, but bleh it is okay - my good deed for the day.
Ah more boy news rather!? There is this 4th year at my uni and he is also a model. Gawd he is one of the most amazing creations I have ever seen! And I get the oppertunity of seeing him almost everyday. It makes my life so much better. Don't get me wrong. looks ain't everything, but I study art for a living and he is a damn masterpiece. *Drools*
Meh, bleh, pfft! Have some essay to do tonight still, but yeah I'll leave that for later. I wanted to post first and keep u guys up to date.
I am still obsessed with my iMac. It has increased my life quality so much lolz! Just sux - my external hard drive is not compatible with mac so geez there goes some more money down the drain. Lolz. Maybe I should make it my dirty PC porn storage. O, wait I don't watch porn. (No not like never, but I am just over it for now. To much of a good thing, eh?)
Nway fuckers. I'll leave ya to it. I have to go read ur stuff now, so I'm off.
P.S. Welcome GMB!
Peace and love,
xXx
What an interesting day...so far! Decided to go into uni earlier to get some much needed work done. Didn't happen. I got there and was feeling so social that I ended up having a great chat with all my friends! Good times!
OMW! One of my gf's got this one amazingly cute guy to come speak with us. So I have one big ass crush on his cute face! And so I spoke with him and we teased the girl and he laughed at all my jokes. EGO BOOST! Lolz! So that was all good and well! ;-p
Then I had three hours of boring class and had do go do a exercise which took me hours. So I got home at 21h. Bleh FML! Would have been here much earlier but this girl asked me for a lift, cause her mother's car broke down. It took me 40min to drop her, but bleh it is okay - my good deed for the day.
Ah more boy news rather!? There is this 4th year at my uni and he is also a model. Gawd he is one of the most amazing creations I have ever seen! And I get the oppertunity of seeing him almost everyday. It makes my life so much better. Don't get me wrong. looks ain't everything, but I study art for a living and he is a damn masterpiece. *Drools*
Meh, bleh, pfft! Have some essay to do tonight still, but yeah I'll leave that for later. I wanted to post first and keep u guys up to date.
I am still obsessed with my iMac. It has increased my life quality so much lolz! Just sux - my external hard drive is not compatible with mac so geez there goes some more money down the drain. Lolz. Maybe I should make it my dirty PC porn storage. O, wait I don't watch porn. (No not like never, but I am just over it for now. To much of a good thing, eh?)
Nway fuckers. I'll leave ya to it. I have to go read ur stuff now, so I'm off.
P.S. Welcome GMB!
Peace and love,
xXx
Monday, February 15, 2010
OMG YUMMY
Okay guys this will be a very short post. I am quite busy and have loads of work to do. I am planning on making a decent post later on tonight, but I have to take time to pay homage to a very yummy fashion trend where I live at the moment.
Men's short shorts...
*DROOLS*
It is absurd! I am constantly facing yummy legs and I am finding it very hard to not jump them legs...
Short shorts thou art a heartless bitch!
P.S. WELCOME to michaelluke and oldmidhurstian
Peace, love and hormones,
xXx
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