Ups and Downs

Those of u that have followed me from the start would know that I am a very happy person. I enjoy life in general. And I enjoy MY life. I am very much in tune with myself and I also have an amazing support system of family and friends.

I really get a kick out of seeing the beautiful details in everything and appreciate everything around me. Sometimes it even makes me cry. Some people think I am living in a bubble. Sometime when down I think the same.

But ya know...fuck it. I am who I am and this is me.

If u are wondering what prompted this...well, I was involved in an incident yesterday where someone could have gotten hurt. Maybe even killed.

And maybe I have to carry part of the blame for it.

I dunno, it is all a blur now. I was so scared and freaked out. I had to go to the police station and get a case number and everything.

I don't really think it would be smart to divulge any details cause of the legal complications.

Point is I think I am in shock and maybe even a bit depressed today. I can't believe it happened. I didn't really get any sleep and I am feeling quite drained of energy.

I just really hope the person will be okay, and that I will get over it as well.

Some people I spoke to say I am being dramatic and bleh maybe I am, but I understand how precious life is and I do not want to be resposible for ending it.

Peace, love and tears,

xXx

P.S. This is the last day u get to vote on the poll